best books of 2021

We’ve had several windstorms already this winter but lucked out during the last one, when most of the Valley lost power. We, of course, had our own drama at that time so it was a huge blessing we didn’t also have to deal with no heat, hot water, or electricity. But we lost power earlier in the year enough times to decide that a woodstove was a necessity sooner rather than later.

best books of 2021

When the power went out during the first windstorm last fall, it was late afternoon and we were quickly losing daylight. I was reading, moving closer and closer to the window so the light would hit the page at the best angle.

This was before the first real snowfall, so the ground didn’t reflect any light. Outside, an old leaf flew up and caught on the branch of a tree, adopted temporarily before letting go and flitting like a bird to another tree where it held again for a minute before a gust blew it away.

Inside, the light kept fading, and even though I was trying to read Hannah Fowler fast enough to finish the chapter before darkness made it impossible, it was a losing battle. It was just like when you stay up too late, trying to finish a chapter before exhaustion hits. But there wasn’t enough light, so I gave up and lit candles and started putting together a cold dinner.

My goal was to read 52 books last year. I read 54. It’s my record; the only other time I came that close was 21 years ago which was the first year I was a mother, when I was nursing a baby with reflux 32 hours a day. This year my goal is higher but so far it’s off to a slower start – I’ve only marked off one book so far – though I read several at a time and could feasibly knock out six before February. We’ll see.

Here are my favorites from last year: The ones I loved, the ones I’ll read again, and the ones that I think could change the world if more people read them. Not every book fits in all those categories (though the ones by C.S. Lewis do, of course). And in full disclosure, the first two books on this list are ones I’m still reading. But I love them so much that you get them on this list now so you can grab them sooner rather than later if you want to.

The Vision of the Anointed by Thomas Sowell:

I quoted this one twice in my last post with this warning: “Thomas Sowell is crazy smart, and I admit it helps to have a drink handy while reading him (I mean coffee, not wine, or don’t bother).” So you’ve been warned. But this is one that I think could change the world if more people read it. He wrote it about 20 years ago, but you’d never know that if the copyright page didn’t tell you; it seems like he’s writing about the days we’re living through now. Here:

Human beings have been making mistakes and committing sins as long as there have been human beings. The great catastrophes of history have usually involved much more than that. Typically, there has been an additional and crucial ingredient — some method by which feedback from reality has been prevented, so that a dangerous course of action could be blindly continued to a fatal conclusion.

— Thomas Sowell, The Vision of the Anointed

An Everlasting Meal by Tamar Adler:

I’ve read a lot of cooking and foodie books over the last few years and this is my new favorite. I will come back to it again and again (and I already do, as I’m cooking) – she is not only a beautiful, gifted writer, but she cooks the way I do (except she’s a chef, so, you know, tiny difference) and reading this book validates my quirks in the kitchen. I want to cook every time I read it. So if you don’t like to cook, give it to your spouse and see if it does the same thing. You’re welcome.

Howards End by E.M. Forster:

I don’t know if I loved this book because I loved the new movie version first or if I would’ve loved the book more (or less) had I read it first before watching it. It’s one of those that has major lessons in it about human nature for those who read slowly enough to learn them. But if you’re not sure about reading it, try the most recent version of the movie because it is also wonderful, and see if that convinces you. Because, forget Howards End, I want to live in the Schlegel’s London flat full of stuffed, turquoise bookshelves.

Pity, if one may generalize, is at the bottom of woman. When men like us, it is for our better qualities, and however tender their liking, we dare not be unworthy of it, or they will quietly let us go. But unworthiness stimulates woman. It brings out her deeper nature, for good or evil.

– E. M. Forster, Howards End

Nicholas Nickleby by Charles Dickens

This was my second go-round with Nicholas Nickleby and I forced my family to come with me. Most of them Some of them liked it. To be fair, it took us over two years to get through the whole thing because it’s over 800 pages and we would read aloud only a few times a month over the squalls of a baby who became a toddler while we went through it. Using Librivox during long drives to Palmer helped, and if you like audio, there’s a terrific version here.

Here’s why I love Nicholas Nickleby, and it’s not just because it’s by Dickens (though he’s my favorite and that’s a pretty good reason): I love Nicholas because he does what you want him to. He stands up for his sister, he confronts cruelty, he is patient and tender with the broken, and best of all, when someone needs horsewhipped, he’s not afraid to do it. *glares disgustedly at David Copperfield*

The Awakening of Miss Prim by Natalia Sanmartin Fenollera

I do not like modern fiction, almost ever, and this was an exception. It is a cozy, contemplative, bookish story that makes you want to move to the town it takes place in. But let me do you a favor and tell you right now that the Man in the Wingchair never gets a real name, which surprised and annoyed me – I had been waiting to discover his name for the entire book. So I’m telling you now to prevent you from expecting it and being disappointed, thereby freeing you to love this otherwise delightful, beautiful, slightly nerdy book.

Hannah Fowler by Janice Holt Giles

This was an ugly old hardcover sitting on my shelf that I must’ve picked up at a thrift store years ago. I happened to pull it off the shelf one day and out of curiosity read the first sentence, and then the next, and then the next…and this is a good way to find the next book you want to read. If you’re not bored in those first sentences, it’s worth a go.

I learned something new in every chapter about pioneering life, living outdoors, and homesteading. Hannah is a strong, thoughtful character, and as I read I wondered if she was strong or gutsy enough to do the things I was hoping she would…and she did.

Wind in the Willows by Kenneth Grahame

I have said so much about Wind in the Willows here already. It’s in this post, and this post, and this book, and all I have left to tell you is that it gets better and better the more times you read it, so please get going on it and you won’t be sorry. This was probably my fourth or fifth time through. If you can read it out loud to your kids and give Toad a ridiculous voice, all the better.

A Brutal Justice by Jess Corban

Quick backstory: I found this book through an online readers group when someone mentioned a hate-fest of people leaving 1-star reviews for its Christian author because one reviewer said her books were full of  homophobic content. So I bought the books (it’s a series of two) to see for myself, and lo and behold…the haters were wrong, as they often are. Here’s my review of the first one, which will also tell you a little about the second one:

This book both was and wasn’t what I expected, but it was nothing like what all the angry, misinformed 1-star reviews tout it as (most of whom admit they never even read the book, which is obvious to those of us who have…and ironically meshes well with the point of the story).

That point of the story is that women, acting in fear and anger and hatred, can be overbearing and cruel. Attempting to fix one huge problem by going in the extreme opposite direction is foolish and leads to serious consequences. Those consequences need to be faced and acknowledged, not ignored out of fear, insecurity, or narcissism.

I don’t usually like young adult books or dystopian novels, and the writing in this book is definitely not my style. (The writing in the second book improves by several notches, in my opinion.) But the storyline is fascinating, and the way both men and women are honored for their distinctness is something that I’ve thought about for days, and will continue to do so.

So, back to my review of the second book in the series, which is the one I loved: Remember what I said about not liking modern fiction? This was another exception that has me rethinking my prejudice. The concepts, characters, and setting were fascinating, and the turns of the story were super satisfying. The first book sets the stage for the story, but this is the one that I didn’t want to end.

Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis

C.S. Lewis gets a lot of credit for Oh My Soul because this book shaped much of it (or, it shaped much of me as I was writing it) and I come back to Mere Christianity every five years or so because it is so rich, I want the truths to sink into me and stay there. My high schoolers (three so far) each read it twice during school – once as freshmen or sophomores, and again as seniors.

“A silly idea is current that good people do not know what temptation means. This is an obvious lie. Only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is… A man who gives in to temptation after five minutes simply does not know what it would have been like an hour later. That is why bad people, in one sense, know very little about badness. They have lived a sheltered life by always giving in.”

– C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

The Whole-Brain Child by Daniel Siegel and Tina Payne Bryson

I don’t read many parenting books anymore. It’s definitely not because I feel like I have this parenting gig nailed already (I am still trying to remember to get my little kids in the bath at least twice a week) but because parenting books can be so discouraging. Overwhelming. Condescending and condemning, in a nicey, psychobabble-laced-with-Christianese kind of way. And I’m good enough at fighting all those feelings without paying $17.95 and reading 220 pages to pound it in, thankyouverymuch.

This book was not like that, though. This book was empowering and encouraging and equipping, and so full of ideas and information that it is worth keeping on a low shelf where you can reach it often and refer back to. It also has a terrific section in each chapter that you can read with your kid to empower, encourage, and equip them as they learn to understand how their brain works, too.

The Enchanted April by Elizabeth von Arnim

Another book that you might know better by the movie. I watched the movie years ago and forgot about it, which was a blessing as I read the book because I didn’t remember any discrepancies that irritated me. Iree read the book shortly after I did and then we rewatched the movie and noticed a few. They were, overall, forgivable, and the movie still stands as a good one. But read the book first. It is cozy and quirky in some of the same ways as The Awakening of Miss Prim, but less bookish, more of a study in human nature, and guaranteed to make you laugh out loud at least a few times.

Bandersnatch by Diana Pavlac Glyer

This book delves into the friendships, collaborations, and works of C.S. Lewis, J.R.R. Tolkien, and the rest of the Inklings – how they inspired, encouraged, criticized, supported, and argued with each other, and became more of who we know them to be because of how they lived out the concept of “iron sharpening iron” in a particularly literary way. Vin, Iree, and I all read this last year and each of us loved it.

As we have seen, the Inklings provided inspiration to start new projects; offered support in times of confusion; shaped the direction of one another’s stories; criticized drafts so severely that books were abandoned; changed what they wrote in anticipation of the groups response; initiated competition that spurred their productivity; edited ragged rough drafts and polished fine ones; worked together to produce joint projects; created fictionalized characters based upon one another….And their experiences point to a much larger truth: creativity thrives in community.

– Diana Pavlac Glyer, Bandersnatch

The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis

I read this one last year with a group of friends, and I think I can speak for all of us when I say…it sorta kicked our butts. It wasn’t what I expected, which is ironic because this was my second time reading it. The first time was years (yeeeeears) ago, and I remember it being funny, clever, intriguing, and insightful. And this time it was all that, but deeper, more intense, and way more challenging. Maybe it’s the times we’re living in that brought up a lot more than I noticed the first time I read it. It is a study on human nature, and it is your nature that you’ll examine as you read it. But done right, it leads to more wholeness, and that’s where we want to go.

 “When He [God] talks of their losing their selves, He means only abandoning the clamour of self-will; once they have done that, He really gives them back all their personality, and boasts (I am afraid, sincerely) that when they are wholly His they will be more themselves than ever.”

― C.S. Lewis, The Screwtape Letters

Money For Nothing by P.G. Wodehouse

This is a brief honorable mention which gets credit for making me laugh so hard that I made ridiculous little desperate, gasping noises because it was 1 am and I was scared of waking up the kids. The argument with the Emily the dog…Hugo catching the burglar while reciting lines from Julius Caesar…Mr. Carmody among the birds…this one’s worth trying. Just don’t blame me if you stay up too late reading and wake up your kids by laughing out loud. I already warned you.

So there you go. We’re ready for a big power outage now; we rearranged our bookshelves and dedicated my favorite little corner to our new woodstove. But if you need more book recommendations, all of our books are here. :)

P.S. Want more books, for all ages? Here’s our list.

not the same: confronting demands for conformity with love and truth

I’ll be honest, the last post blew me away. I guess maybe the feeling was mutual.

Thank you so much for the support you’ve shown our family. Little Kav is in his hard cast and the five (!) pins are scheduled to be removed next week, when he’ll get a new cast for a few more weeks.

not the same: confronting demands for conformity with love and truth

We’ve gotten texts from friends and emails and messages from strangers offering to help and it has been super encouraging. We’ve also gotten a few (literally, a few) forwards of ignorant, rude, or outright nasty comments (from a social media platform we no longer participate in) opposing what we did.

It’s so miniscule, less than 1% of responses…or, you know, about the same as the actual danger of Covid. (Smile.)

But just for kicks because I think it’s fun (and often funny), let me tell you what they were. They all basically said the same thing, though in different ways: “Why don’t you just do/say/parent/think the way I do?”

The short answer is: Because we are not the same.

I don’t think they should have to do things the way I do. They should have a choice in how they parent their kids and make decisions for their future and their health. They should have a choice when they go to the ER to do things to protect themselves, and protecting ourselves doesn’t always look the same for everyone because we have different health histories and values. I think they should benefit from laws that are in place for patient care, and we should, too.

They apparently don’t think that. We are not the same.

Hospital staff, including security, nurses, a staff supervisor, and a surgeon, acted in direct violation of the Patient’s Bill of Rights, the Americans with Disabilities Act, HIPPA, and EMTALA, just to start, because of a “mandate.”

Quick legal review: Mandates are not laws. Laws are laws.

They were wrong. According to an email we got this morning, they’re being investigated.

They refused care to our injured three-year-old who needed emergency surgery. Defending them because of a political agenda in spite of law and basic ethics exposes some serious heart issues. If you think other people need to voluntarily relinquish both their rights as citizens and responsibilities as a parent because that fits the narrative you’ve come to believe, that’s not political. At the core, that’s a wholeness issue.

When loyalty to a job or company or person or a narrative leads to demands of others at the expense of truth, love, and justice, the result is an exposure of pride and insecurity. And those are two sides of the same coin that show up in different ways, including people pleasing, virtue signaling, narcissism, greed, selfishness, attention seeking, and cowardice.

Basically, here’s the demand: Why don’t you just give up your choice and your rights to conform, like me?

And here’s my answer: Because I’m not like you. We are not the same.

We come from different worldviews. We’re using some of the same words, but with different definitions.

For example, take the concept of responsibility. I think responsibility means being accountable for your own choices. Other people think being responsible means getting double (or triple, or whatever) jabbed for a virus that’s 99.97% safe. They think we’re irresponsible for refusing the Covid swab for our healthy toddler, even though the swabs are unreliable, have been shown to cause injury, and are being discontinued by the CDC. We are not the same.

Their definition doesn’t sound like responsibility to me; it sounds like fear. And fear is the most pandered sin in the church.

Why don’t you just do what the hospital says? Why don’t you just let them do what they want with your children? Why ask pesky questions instead of leaving your brain at the door?

I’ve been reading The Vision of the Anointed by Thomas Sowell, and he gives a great answer: “…Third-party decision making by surrogates for ‘society’ offers no a priori reason to expect a closer approximation to omniscience.”

Thomas Sowell is crazy smart, and I admit it helps to have a drink handy while reading him (I mean coffee, not wine, or don’t bother) so here’s a translation in easier English: Third parties who think they’re doing society a favor by making decisions for them are playing God, and they’re not very good at it.

“On the contrary, such surrogates not only lack the detailed and direct knowledge of the innumerable circumstances surrounding each of the millions of individuals whose decisions they are preempting, they lack the incentives of direct gain and loss from being right or wrong, and they have every incentive to persist in mistaken policies (from which they suffer little), rather than admit to being wrong (from which they could suffer much).”

– Thomas Sowell, The Vision of the Anointed

Translation: Third parties who attempt to play God not only lack the information necessary to do it right, but they tend to persist in the inevitable errors that result because those errors do not directly impact them, and admitting fault would.

Or, a quicker summary: Decisions should not be made by those who don’t have to live with the consequences and cannot be trusted to admit fault.

Why don’t you just mask, and get admitted yourself a day or three later? Why don’t you just allow experimentation and ineffective tests on your children?

Translation: Why don’t you just roll over and do everything you’re told? Why don’t you just make the same choices I would? Why don’t you just think like me?

This is only a few steps away from “Why don’t you just tell the Germans where the Jews are? Why don’t you just slap that yellow star on? Just put the sign on your window? Just take the thirty pieces of silver?”

I’m a nurse and don’t you know I’ve sacrificed so much as a frontline worker? Haven’t you seen the commercials? The heroic dance routines? Why aren’t you bowing to my revered, new celebrity status like all the other virtue signalers?

I have friends who are nurses. I love nurses. One in particular has walked closely alongside us in this situation with support and inside knowledge. But, sweetheart, moms and dads were frontline workers first. We are the first frontline when it comes to our kids. Consider that.

And my favorite: “Why didn’t you just git yer shots and protect yer kids?!”

Wait, wait, wait – the shot that doesn’t protect people from Covid can prevent toddlers from breaking their arm while sledding? Bless your heart.

If you fall into any of these camps, there’s no getting around it – you are saying that it’s okay for nurses, surgeons, and hospitals to strip patients and parents of their rights. You probably won’t like it put in those terms, but let’s be honest about it.

And if that’s the case, you probably justify it by saying you’re willing to relinquish those rights for “the good of society” because you’re convinced that society needs to be upended for a virus that’s 99.97% safe for the population — so many times safer than the normal flu we’ve lived with all our lives. If you’ve chosen to believe liars and ignore data, I can’t and won’t argue with you.

But I will point out that your decision to relinquish your rights does not obligate me or anyone else to relinquish those same rights.

My willingness to do (or not do) certain things does not obligate you to do (or not do) the same things. This works two ways, friends. You’re not being selfless or righteous if you’re demanding others to make the same decision.

And, just a warning: Whatever rights you relinquish so easily now, there will come a situation when someone tries to take something from you that you do care about.

There will. And you should think about that.

When that happens, you’ll have every right to fight for it and stand your ground.

But it might be too late. Because by then, those whose rights you’ve thrown under the bus might not be there to stand with you.


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P.S. Should the Lord allow, next week I plan to get back to my normal cozy, quirky writing and off this soapbox. Grab your favorite clicker pencil and put your nerd face on: Best books of 2021, coming right up.

the last (or first) newsletter of the year…but not the one I expected to write

Hi friends,

My newsletters have always been private, just for subscribers. But for the first time in seven years, this newsletter is going on my site because it is a message that everyone needs to hear. Not everyone will want to hear it, but after the last 48 hours I don’t care anymore, and those who do far outnumber those who don’t, anyway.

The scales are tipping, and they’ve needed to for a long time.

And I know that God knows what He’s doing even when I don’t know what He’s doing, because just four days ago in my weekly devotional I spoke on when you’re waiting for God to show up: trusting that God is going to move in your situation when you don’t understand what’s going on or why it’s happening.

And then the day before yesterday as I was drafting out this newsletter (which was due yesterday but you’ll understand the delay in a minute if you haven’t already heard) I wrote about going into December with grand expectations, and going into situations or seasons with expectations that often don’t turn out.

I was going to start it by telling you a cute story about our enormous cat Bingley, who hates getting his claws trimmed so much that the process usually takes three of us, a large towel, bandages, and antiseptic. Bingley is learning to not knead my lap with his scimitar claws because I’m learning to confront his expectations by keeping the claw clippers handy. He must be a slow learner, because we do this routine every few days and I’ve trimmed most of his front claws by now…but I’m a slow learner, too, because I also go into things with expectations that often don’t turn out, even though experience has taught me otherwise.

It was funny. It was light-hearted.

And then an hour later, our little Kavanagh, barely three, broke his arm in three places while sledding.

That was 48 hours ago as I type this.

And here’s what happened, as I shared on Gab and Telegram:

We’re on our way to the third hospital, after being seen in urgent care because our little Kav broke his arm sledding.

Got X-rays. Broken humerus. Needs emergency surgery.

They sent us to Anchorage because the peds surgeon on call in the Valley wasn’t super comfortable with it, it’s not his specialty.

So, fine.

Providence Medical Center refused to see us because I have a mask exemption. They don’t care. They’re in the business of drumming up business, not healing, don’t you know. Their ER was packed, too.

So we went to Alaska Regional. They wouldn’t allow my husband in, but begrudgingly acquiesced to my exemption. Waited an hour and a half.

And then a nurse came in to swab my son for covid.

I said no.

She acted like she’d never heard that before. Said she’d have to talk to someone.

Ten or fifteen minutes later, three nurses come in. They must’ve really needed moral support. They said lots of things about “policy” and “mandate” but gave no real info and wouldn’t answer questions. I said I wanted to talk to the surgeon.

Again, same routine with the intake doc.

Then I spoke to the surgeon’s assistant, who was great. Please pray for him because he might need a new job now.

Because a few minutes later the surgeon walked in, loudly said, “You won’t allow a test so I won’t do your surgery. No surgery from me.” And left the room. When I tried to ask him questions he said I was refusing to comply. [That video is here on Gab and here on Telegram.]

Then they just left me there with my just-barely-turned-three toddler, bruise blackening.

I waited a while, figured out how to put the bed down so Kav could sleep, and went to the hallway. Isn’t there someone who can answer questions?

What, you actually expect information or rights? Craziness!

A nurse told me I needed to go back to my room. Seriously.

About ten or fifteen minutes later, the staff supervisor came back with a couple of friends, and another in the hall, and security right behind.

Would not answer questions, give info, show written policy, nothing. No information at all. Just kept saying I refused to comply with policy, even though they wouldn’t explain or show me that policy. I have video. They called APD on me and threatened to trespass me. [The video of that is here on Gab and here on Telegram.]

[ADDED because I forgot about it when I originally posted this: Sending us to Providence would have done nothing for us, because we would have gotten the same on call surgeon there who already refused to treat Kavanagh, and I’m confident the nurse knew it.

That same nurse, as she was trying to get rid of us, also said, “You’ll have to go to Alaska Native Medical Center, then.” When I responded that we’re not Native, she said, “Right, you’re not,” and smirked. This woman was just wasting our time by trying to send us on a wild goose chase while our son was injured and needing care.]

So we left. I would not leave my child unsupervised there to have his toenails trimmed at this point.

So please pray. We just pulled up to hospital number three.

Hospital number three was MatSu Regional, our local hospital. I called ahead while we were driving, told them the situation, and asked if they would admit us without demanding to swab my toddler. They said they would check, put me on hold. After a few minutes they came back and said yes, they would just do surgery as though he were Covid positive. What does that mean? That means they prep the OR differently and wear shields and gowns to protect from contagion and infection. (Um, don’t they try to prevent infection or contamination, regardless? But I digress.)

It was a totally different experience from Alaska Regional in Anchorage, where we were treated like peons who had no right to even ask questions. MatSu Regional told us our rights, gave us the Patient Bill of Rights in writing (and the right to refuse testing is on the first page), and explained everything so we could understand it (which was necessary because there was a lot of miscommunication). Overall, they were kind, respectful, and conscientious over details.

They respected medical exemptions for masks – with the exception of the paper pushers in the lobby who panic when they see a person’s entire face and apparently don’t know what to do with healthy, assertive people who are versed in their rights. Those ladies were shocked and bewildered when I told them I was medically exempt, as though they’d never even heard the term before. (“Uh, um, er, I’m not sure if we do that here.” Oh, I assure you that you do, trust me.)

They’re going to see a lot more of it soon. People are waking up and are going to stop rolling over for the insanity, and it will be much harder for people behind a desk or a badge to live in a bubble, out of touch with reality, checking their brains at the door to just do what they’re told.

We were in the ER at MatSu Regional until about 1 am. They splinted Kav’s arm and sent us home, with surgery scheduled for the afternoon.

As I was getting ready for bed in the wee hours, God confronted me. This is what I shared on social media:

The Lord just asked me, So, will you forgive?

And, yeah…that’s hard. But when you consider how much, how fiercely God loves His children, it’s easy to move out of His way so He can be the one to execute judgement.

Because that’s what forgiveness does — it frees us and makes room for Him to bring justice.

Understanding God’s character and love for us almost makes forgiveness too easy. We use tough-sounding phrases like “May God have mercy on them, because I won’t,” but I’ve been reading the Psalms a lot lately and it doesn’t say much about mercy for those who willfully harm His kids to appease idolatry.

“At the set time that I appoint
    I will judge with equity.
When the earth totters, and all its inhabitants,
    it is I who keep steady its pillars.

I say to the boastful, ‘Do not boast,’
    and to the wicked, ‘Do not lift up your horn;
do not lift up your horn on high,
    or speak with haughty neck.’”

For not from the east or from the west
    and not from the wilderness comes lifting up,
but it is God who executes judgment, putting down one and lifting up another.

– Psalm 75:2-7

I slept two hours that night in fitful dozing, and woke to a voicemail at 7:30 that told us to be back in the ER at 9 to start prepping for surgery.

But even once we were there and scheduled, the hits kept coming. One expectation after another was replaced by something harder:

Kav needed an overnight stay, not outpatient surgery.

The bones were too unstable, so the surgery that was supposed to be about an hour took almost three hours.

It wasn’t one break as we thought from the X-rays, but three breaks.

This surgery usually only requires one or two pins, but they had to use five.

So I’ve been grieving and processing, telling God, This is so hard. I know bad things happen, but this is my son.

It was My son, too, He said.

And that was so much worse. Devastation upon devastation. The headlines in Mark read like this:

Betrayal and arrest of Jesus

Jesus before the council

Peter denies Jesus

Jesus delivered to Pilate

Pilate delivers Jesus to be crucified

Jesus is mocked

The crucifixion

The death of Jesus

Jesus is buried

But it wasn’t over. And He prepares us, because in that devotional video that’s exactly what the He led me to talk about: The Lord lets us see movement before the final breakthrough. He lets us see that He’s still in control, even if it looks like it’s over.

We can pick up on what’s really going on if we have the eyes to see it.

I can’t tell you how many times hospital staff asked me, “How did this happen?” It was odd at first and then I realized what they were doing – checking to see if my answer changed. Which is fine, okay, it’s good to watch for signs of abuse, of course. But there’s this continual sense of professional and persistent suspicion toward all parents.

Last night, the nurse started asking a ton of questions and writing down answers, and they became increasingly irrelevant to Kavanagh’s care and more intrusive of our family: When is his bedtime, what does he drink milk from, does he sleep in his own bed and what kind of bed is it, what are the names and ages of all his siblings? I stopped her and said I decline answering, since they have nothing to do with his care.

Newsflash to hospitals and medical staff: Parents should be as suspicious of you as you are of us.

So it was mutual, and everyone was kind and some were surprisingly honest about it. After I said I would sleep in the hospital bed with Kav, one nurse actually said, “I have to tell you this, even though I personally totally understand and that’s fine, but because it’s my job I have to say the words that ‘cosleeping is dangerous and not recommended.’ But he just had surgery and he needs you, so it’s totally fine.”

“I’ve had eight kids. I don’t really care what the hospital’s recommendation is,” I said. Hospitals that feed their patients fake butter, Jello pudding, and Red #3 as standard fare are not exactly displaying their brilliant command of wellness research or parenting expertise, but thanks anyway.

We are living in a compromised society when even good doctors have to use bad language to protect themselves: In their notes, using slanted phrases like “covid protocol violations” and “refusal for covid protocol compliance” instead of “hospital denied rights to medically exempt parent” or “hospital violated patient bill of rights by denying their right to refuse testing.” Or, just a suggestion: “Hospital refused to treat injured toddler over political polarization.”

This will not get easier until we all stand up. We must stop compromising our values and rolling over for more abuse. They are not going to blunt their claws on their own; we are going to have to keep the clippers handy no matter how much they hate the trimming.

We’re living in a time where people are having to do things they don’t want to do. It goes both ways, though. You can tell you’re doing it the right way if you’re walking in worship toward God rather than walking in fear of man.

So Pilate, wishing to please the crowd, released Barabbas and scourged Jesus and had Him crucified.
– Mark 15:15

Or today’s rendition:

So medical personnel, wishing to please the moneymakers and bureaucracy, denied truth and science by releasing illogical policies, unhealthy mandates, and blatant propaganda—choosing cowardice and lies over their Hippocratic oath, they denied medical ethics and patient rights, and created a culture of perpetual sickness and tyranny.

Or, because I’m feeling pretty punchy after 36 hours of fighting for my boy on two hours of sleep and a breakfast of coffee and ibuprofen, there’s also this:

So fearful people afraid of giving offense, losing their jobs, or leaving their comfort zone, denied logic and critical thinking, continuing to roll over for every new demand, policy, and mandate — and in doing so, chose compromise and cowardice over truth and courage, and delivered their country and children to communism and slavery.

If that offends you, there’s the door. But if it convicts you, praise God – let’s get to work.

It is going to take hard choices and bold risks and big sacrifices to remove ourselves from our compromising partnership with elements in the culture that are destroying our values and liberty. We are entangled in every level, and we often fund and serve the same enemy who is trying to enslave us. We have to choose our battles and do one thing at a time.

I cannot tell you what to do, but I know that if you understand what is at stake, you will do something.

Start your own business. Learn to cook from scratch. Learn to grow food. Quit your job. Fire your boss. Shop somewhere else. Homeschool. Start a co-op. Shut off your TV. Take off the mask. Find a new doctor. Stand up to those who assume you will just roll over and comply. Teach them the word “No.”

You’ll pray and seek the Lord and He will tell you what to do. And then you will pray again, and do another thing – and another, and another, until you are as free from compromising entanglements as you can be.

But if you don’t understand what’s at stake, you won’t.

I’m grateful that when we started to see what was happening in 2020 with the Covid agenda, we already had experience homeschooling our kids, earning our own income, and working from home. We were already actively learning about nutrition, health, wholeness, and healing. We have not arrived by a long shot (such a bummer we can’t perform surgery yet, right?) but it has been one step at a time as the Lord directs us.

It has never for a second been easy. But it has been right. And looking back, I can see how gracious He was to prepare and move us to learn the things we are doing routinely now.

Those of us who understand what is happening are learning to meet the presumptuous bullying of this multifaceted agenda with boundaries and strength. They may have claws like scimitars, but we’re learning to keep the clippers handy, and their threats have less and less power when we do so.

I am confident of one thing in the next year: No matter what we expect, it will blow those expectations out of the water.

If you dread the new year, it will not be what you expect.

If you think the best is yet to come (and I do), it will not be what we expect, either.

But whatever happens, He will show up and bring justice, because He is the God with us.

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

– Romans 8:28

So there’s the December newsletter. I’m sorry you’re getting this in January, and I’m sorry it’s a mile long, but it’s what needed to be said. And it’s still 2021 in Alaska – for a few seconds, anyway.

Happy New Year, friends.

He still moves us,

Shannon

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Related:

Not the Same: My response to those who think we should’ve just rolled over for the hospital

What the Day Demands: What came of the investigation into Alaska Regional

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